I'm just glad . Glad that you came on time ... before my life sucks more . I'm also glad that you weren't in my childhood memories which I wish to not remember those times . Maybe I need to work harder than just saying 'thank you' . Even if you don't ask what are those words for , thank you for widening my point of view and open my typical mind . You taught me more than those who are with me in the early morning until late evening every weekdays from January to November .
Last year (12') , I wished that you stayed until we graduate high school because you were the best ! We fought over unnecessary things that leads us to doodle one another's face until we fell from the chair , lying on the floor which made us came late into the lab . You were the first person who was a new student who treated me like that . And that was totally new .
But when 2013 came , we were already high school students (which we're already seniors) . We got into different classes and it's a bit confusing during recess . Whether you'll go to the canteen or eat at coop . We seldom see each other , other than curriculum activities or additional classes in the evening .
By mid-year , I became annoyed be your happy-go-lucky attitude whenever we meet . I didn't know why I felt that way myself . I even avoided you for sometimes . After a while , I needed someone who could courage me in my studies since my results were turning out bad . Hence , it was about a month before our final exam (our exam started earlier than other schools) .
I searched for you and ask if you could accompany me after school so that we could study together . Besides , you had duties in the afternoon since you're a librarian . But happened was we talked and talked and talked . I didn't really mind since at that time , I realized that I missed you . I missed your cheerful expression , voice , attitude .... all !
Even those days when I didn't treated you well (nak tak nak je) , you still treated me well like a best friend treats her best friend . You gave me food , you always asked whether I would stay back or go home . And my lame-sucking reasons were "sorry , I promised with my sister to pick me up early" or "I promised ------ I'll be going to her house this afternoon" . Even so , you were brave enough to stay alone even when everyone went home in the evening , you waited patiently for your sister to finish her work .
After exam was over , I left you in the evening again . By going to another friend's house , going home purposely , etc ... when you were all by yourself at school . Maybe it's because I thought that you already had someone to accompany you .... or I forgot about you while planning to go somewhere else .
I regretted all of that . I hated what I did to you I felt like I was using you during my hard times and left you behind during ease . I then thought to myself , why did I even asked your sister to not let you move and stay at this school with me if I can't treat you well ? That was dumbest request I'll ever made if I can't . I'm truly sorry , and this sorry comes from my sincere heart . To be honest , I did felt annoyed by you once again but luckily I endured that feeling well and still treated you as a friend should be treated .
And ....... while I was making up to you again , you had this one guy who's a skater boy living in the States which you damn like (bias) . I had a bias too from Korea . Well yeah , I'm a kpop fan but I do know the disgusted feelings of those who aren't kpop fans . However , you woke me up .
You , who is not a kpop fan , hear all of my stories about my bias even he's a Korean . You still made the best reaction for me to keep continuing my stories and "fangirling" session . But till that day , I didn't realize it until you told me about a friend who can't accept your interest , but keeps on talking about her interest and wants people to hear . My mind became lost . I keep on thinking if I've ever been like that friend .
I then wanted to become the person who would hear your all of your interest even if it's not the same as mine and give the best and cheerful reaction I could . Since I'm a cold girl (sometimes) , I still wanted give out best reactions like you did even though I can't express my feelings well .
I really hate it when the warm feelings doesn't come and I have to pretend it . I hate it for lying to that person . It breaks me . I feel awkward and I just can't imagine how awkward my face is at that time . And now , it's school holidays . You came to like kpop like I do . Well ... I could help you by giving billions pictures of your bias .
So we now stay up every night together even if we're not under the same roof . We keep in touch through weChat . As how you love to call me SuKyung , I decided to call you Hana which means , happiness . Why ? because you bring my happiness . You taught me what I lack much . 
Thanks for opening my eyes wider , treat me well , give the best expression you ever had , hear my interests , staying up late with me , etc all the things you ever did for me . Let's work hard together next year for SPM and make a long list promise . This time , I am sure to stay back after school with you until late evening , In Syaa Allah (=
사랑해 하나야 , 그리고 고마워 ... 진심이야 .
모든 것에 감사 해요 , 완전히 진짜 !
Let's stick for a long long time together ....both of us .
Even after 10 years , 20 years or even 50 years . 
In Syaa Allah .
하나는 행복입니다 .
우리 오래 가자 ! 열심히하자 !
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