Sunday, 14 September 2014

THE BOASTFUL AND THE HUMBLE EARTHLINGS

Hi , Assalamualaikum and a very , VERY good morning to people on earth ^^ (it's 1;30 a.m)

what I'm gonna elaborate on this topic is about a simple life of an boastful person and a rich life of a humble person .

Am not going to insult anybody but do you know which one of the above person are you ?
We just discussed this with our tuition teacher about how many people have he had taught .
How many personalities have he had known .

This is just to give us some moral values to don't be someone whom people would hate .
Not saying that I am perfect or so because imperfect in nais . ^^


So here's a student of his , (which is my senior) who is rich .
((Rich usually describes ; mean , arrogant , stingy , boastful , etc))
How this senior of mine is so nice . In fact , she's so humble even when she drives Porsche to university . She's nice to talk to and liked by people . Even though I seldom talk to her , not to mention bumping into her , she really nice .
Pretty in and out ^^
(even her mother , our teacher is also nice and acts like she lives an ordinary life)

In the other hand , who is my senior as well , she is boastful . I don't know her more than her name . But what I was told by my tuition teacher who reached her not long ago , she's boastful in some kind of way and acts that she lives a richer life . I'm not here to embarrass her or whatever in same meaning .


To me , I also admit that I feel like I'm living a "richer" life than I am suppose to live .
But to say , I don't like boasting . I don't know whether I boast or not in people's eyes  , but I feel that I am . In some kind of way ..  there must be .

sooooowww yeah ...




I have this one friend who likes to boast about the things she has which she thinks that every single people has it and afford to have it . Being like "oh I have , how come you don't?" . And she will always say she have and ever did do all the things that we did and have (which caught our attention in a bad way) . Because of her attitude , friends around her dislikes her a bit or maybe more . To be frank , Idk whether all the thing she says are true or the other way round . It's hard to believe


So , may this help you to recognize who lives inside you .
I'm sorry if what I wrote tends to hurt or insult but there's no intention at all .
This is just to get rid of the boastful personalities within us .

Moral values for you and me <3

May our changes towards the goods will be eased by Allah (one and only) .
Best of Luck and see you sooner or later readers (:

Saturday, 15 March 2014

#PRAYFORMH370

Hi , Assalamualikum and Good Evening (:

As we all know , especially Malaysians , what had happened to MH370 . I'm pretty sure that this news has gone worldwide trending all over the news and internet . For you guys who still don't what's going on , well MH370 (Malaysia's no.1 airplane) had gone missing since last Saturday . Today is the 8th day it has gone missing in action . With the help from many countries , I am so thankful and grateful . Although I can only do nothing to help by hand , but my prayers will always be the one that would help . It's sad knowing things like this are going on in Malaysia .

It's even sad when there are these typical Malaysians who know nothing and can't do anything to help besides having their big fat ass on their chair , going online , only knows how to criticize . Those who makes assumptions and asking everyone to believe them is super gross . You're worst than a beggar who lives on the streets . No moral been taught I see . I believe everybody has their own assumptions about what's going own and what happened to the plane . I have my own assumptions too . But I don't go spreading stupid rumours about the missing plane . I do share the curiosity about the missing plane with my friends but we don't tweet it nor post it on facebook or any other social network . If your words are nice , it's okay . However these freaking people which Idk where their IQ is hiding uses disrespectful words . Not only me , everybody would be pissed off with your words . Remember ; "kerana mulut badan binasa" . With your "so cool" words that you think people would agree to , the family members of the crew and passengers are sad . They would even be sadder reading your tweets . They are shedding a thousand of tears to the lost of their family members and you're writing a nonsense crap about them . Isn't that going overboard !? You think you're cool but the truth is people are spitting on your image and name .

And the one I can't stand is that the so called "batak famous" . I know that 'batak' isn't a suitable word but who cares as long as people know what I mean . Ya Allah , for God's sake . people over the world especially Malaysia and China are sad about this sudden news and you are seeking for popularity . What a trash ! You aren't famous at all ! you are worth to be called "sampah masyarakat" . Acting like you're one of the family members who lost her mother but frankly your mother is home , doing well . Stealing other people's picture and act like it's your mom and creating a new twitter with some kind of "awesome" name so people would pay attention to you and sympathize you . If I'd be you , I would go cycling and crash in a lake and drown . Don't live -,- Rather than being a crap . Please , I know your teacher gave you so many homeworks to make you have a useful day so please complete it .

With the "bomoh" thingy who came to the airport and did what-so-ever thing that they think is true , I don't wanna talk much . All I can say is , 'kembalilah ke pangkal jalan . Pintu taubat Allah masih terbuka luas sehingga ke hari kiamat' . and those who are born holding to the taught of 'ahli sunnah wal Jamaah' , keep on holding to it and don't believe in those crap . Follow the teachings in al-Quran and our prophet , Rasulullah SAW .

And for politicians , I don't wanna get my butt into politics but I don't think the case of the disappearance of MH370 has anything to do with politics . Idk cause it's your assumptions , right ? but I remind you to just keep it to yourself and only let out nice pretty words that can make the family members of MH370 crew and passengers have hope .

To those who helped by hand , life , money , time and prayers , thank you . I know I'm just a nobody and I have nothing to do with this incident but as a Malaysian , I'm proud to know that Malaysian people and people from around the world who still cares and willing to hand in your biggest favour . Thank you .

And as a Muslim , this has nothing to do with Malaysians or other races . We are been taught to pray for other people's hardships no matter for Muslim brothers/sisters or other religions . Do show your great attitude as a Muslim . Islam is peace . Where ever they are , how ever they are doing , it's all possible with Allah's might . 'qun fa ya qun' . All we have to do is support the professionals , wish them the all best and pray so that everything would be at ease .


a message from me to everybody on board ;
It has already been 8 days since your disappearance MH370 . Everyone's waiting with hope for your safe return . I have a strong instinct saying that you're alive and I won't change it until there's any news that confirms you're gone . My prayers will always be with you until appear in front of us , safely . I have nothing to do with you guys but it tears me up knowing that you're gone without any signs . Please show up in no time and say that you're fine and doing well . Prove to those people who criticized you guys that you're not what they said you are . Okay , I'm talking out of the line but seriously , I wish you guys all the best and come home safely . Don't forget to hug your loved ones and have a good day (':

Sunday, 2 February 2014

I'm not insignificant !

It seems like everyday is a bad day for me .
I know this is a test from Allah but if you see ... the last 2 years , I sat for a big test (PMR) , I became someone who's not like me .
I hated everyone .
To make the story short , I was disrespectful child , girl , and so whatever I was back then .
This year , I'll be sitting for a big exam before I finish school (SPM) .
but last year I was fine confused
It's like everyone is picking on me . So I'm the bad girl here .
Why won't I be ? Be nice to me , please ...

Why do I say I'm not insignificant ?
well .... PEOPLE IGNORES ME .. and it hurts crying
and when I isolate myself from others , people say that I'm arrogant .
but when I be like "oh hey *bla bla bla*" , they would just look at me and ignore me .
JUST WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS SHHH@#$%^ !!!?
If you're not sure if I just talked to you or not , do ask weh !
Don't be like 'did she talk to me ..... well I guess not' .

Why is everybody being this to me ?
I know there are those who experience way worst than me but , lemme just write this whole crap out of me .

  • When I give my greetings to the teacher and bow a little , the teacher would just pass by without even replying . But if my friend gives her greeting before or after me , OMG! the teacher replies . Whut !? if my voice is to low , okay fine but why does the teachers gimme looks like I came from Mars ? straight face
  • When I socialize with my cousins , they'd just stare at me as if I'm talking an alien language . but when I just sit in the room , listening to musics or reading a book , they're like 'why are just sitting in the room ?' . You know I feel like giving a hard punch in their faces so that they don't have teeth anymore . 
  • My friends be like 'what's wrong with your mood' or 'are you in a bad mood' but ask me what's wrong with me if I'm being hyper . then leaves me or make faces as if they don't know me .
  • My mom doesn't entertain me if I talk much and just nod as a reply . (Idk if she did hear what I was saying or not)
  • Teacher doesn't give me more attention as a failure . All teachers are like ..... (she understands) and just go on with what their teaching especially the hard ones . OMG I FAILED !!!! Why are you giving attention to those who got A+ and stuffs . No use being in science stream after all if I fail all the subjects (not all) .
There's more that I'm too lazy to list . 

Yes I'm the youngest in my family , but they're erasing the my respect towards them .
In fact , I don't have any feelings to respect them at all .
Not anymore ...

Just yesterday , mom scolded me saying that I have to respect my brothers and sisters since I'm the youngest . But I replied ; what for if they don't give me any respect from the start .
She said that it doesn't matter about them not giving any respect to me but what matters more is my respect towards them .
I freaking swear , it stuck in my head until this hour (5 am) that I feel like wanting to hit my head on the wall and wake up in a hospital not remembering a thing that happened .

YOU'RE WRONG MOM !
I'm not an ugly doll who could just be kicked away like that .
I have pride ....

Yeah , sometimes I feel so useless that I always question to myself ,
why did mom and dad have me if 5 children were enough .
Mom even said that it's useless having a child like this .
Well mom , you said a quite few times , aaaaaand your prayers have been answered .

I'm useless , dot .

Last Tuesday , my father should have pick me up after school at 6 but until 7 he didn't arrive .
Around 6 30 , I send a message through a family group in WhatsApp saying that dad hasn't arrive yet and I've run out of credits . No money , only internet that's connected to the library's wifi .
Before that , my sister was online , but she just ignored the message .
Thought that my dad would arrive late .
I spammed the group even more but then my brother was like 'hahaha pity you being ignored' .
He was home for God's sake and have license !
So when they ignored me , I said that I would walk home and it's a luck if I arrive home alive .
(Since the high way to my home is a bit dangerous)
They just laughed at me .
even a few days after ...
I think if I have a knife around my neck , they would still just laugh .

See how insignificant I am ?

If anyone reads this laughing their butts out , I don't even care to mind about them .
especially my siblings . they don't take things like these seriously .
When I'm writing this , shedding tears .

just wanna say , I , SUFI ILHAM am NOT INSIGNIFICANT !
know me too . see me . recognize me .
I'd be thankful . much much .

THIS IS A CRAP !