Tuesday, 17 December 2013

Hana is Happiness (하나는 행복입니다)

I'm just glad . Glad that you came on time ... before my life sucks more . I'm also glad that you weren't in my childhood memories which I wish to not remember those times . Maybe I need to work harder than just saying 'thank you' . Even if you don't ask what are those words for , thank you for widening my point of view and open my typical mind . You taught me more than those who are with me in the early morning until late evening every weekdays from January to November .

Last year (12') , I wished that you stayed until we graduate high school because you were the best ! We fought over unnecessary things that leads us to doodle one another's face until we fell from the chair , lying on the floor which made us came late into the lab . You were the first person who was a new student who treated me like that . And that was totally new .

But when 2013 came , we were already high school students (which we're already seniors) . We got into different classes and it's a bit confusing during recess . Whether you'll go to the canteen or eat at coop . We seldom see each other  , other than curriculum activities or additional classes in the evening .

By mid-year , I  became annoyed be your happy-go-lucky attitude whenever we meet . I didn't know why I felt that way myself . I even avoided you for sometimes . After a while , I needed someone who could courage me in my studies since my results were turning out bad . Hence , it was about a month before our  final exam (our exam started earlier than other schools) .

I searched for you and ask if you could accompany me after school so that we could study together . Besides , you had duties in the afternoon since you're a librarian . But happened was we talked and talked and talked . I didn't really mind since at that time , I realized that I missed you . I missed your cheerful expression , voice , attitude .... all !

Even those days when I didn't treated you well (nak tak nak je) , you still treated me well like a best friend treats her best friend . You gave me food , you always asked whether I would stay back or go home . And my lame-sucking reasons were "sorry , I promised with my sister to pick me up early" or "I promised ------ I'll be going to her house this afternoon" .  Even so , you were brave enough to stay alone even when everyone went home in the evening , you waited patiently for your sister to finish her work .

After exam was over , I left you in the evening again . By going to another friend's house , going home purposely , etc ... when you were all by yourself at school . Maybe it's because I thought that you already had someone to accompany you .... or I forgot about you while planning to go somewhere else .

I regretted all of that . I hated what I did to you  I felt like I was using you during my hard times and left you behind during ease . I then thought to myself , why did I even asked your sister to not let you move and stay at this school with me if I can't treat you well ? That was dumbest request I'll ever made if I can't . I'm truly sorry , and this sorry comes from my sincere heart . To be honest , I did felt annoyed by you once again but luckily I endured that feeling well and still treated you as a friend should be treated .

And ....... while I was making up to you again , you had this one guy who's a skater boy living in the States which you damn like (bias) . I had a bias too from Korea . Well yeah , I'm a kpop fan but I do know the disgusted feelings of those who aren't kpop fans . However , you woke me up .

You , who is not a kpop fan , hear all of my stories about my bias even he's a Korean . You still made the best reaction for me to keep continuing my stories and "fangirling" session . But till that day , I didn't realize it until you told me about a friend who can't accept your interest , but keeps on talking about her interest and wants people to hear . My mind became lost . I keep on thinking if I've ever been like that friend .

I then wanted to become the person who would hear your all of your interest even if it's not the same as mine and give the best and cheerful reaction I could . Since I'm a cold girl (sometimes) , I still wanted give out best reactions like you did even though I can't express my feelings well .

I really hate it when the warm feelings doesn't come and I have to pretend it . I hate it for lying to that person . It breaks me . I feel awkward and I just can't imagine how awkward my face is at that time . And now , it's school holidays . You came to like kpop like I do . Well ... I could help you by giving billions pictures of your bias .

So we now stay up every night together even if we're not under the same roof . We keep in touch through weChat . As how you love to call me SuKyung , I decided to call you Hana which means , happiness . Why ? because you bring my happiness . You taught me what I lack much . 

Thanks for opening my eyes wider , treat me well , give the best expression you ever had , hear my interests , staying up late with me , etc all the things you ever did for me . Let's work hard together next year for SPM and make a long list promise . This time , I am sure to stay back after school with you until late evening , In Syaa Allah (=

사랑해 하나야 , 그리고 고마워 ... 진심이야 .
모든 것에 감사 해요  , 완전히 진짜 ! 

Let's stick for a long long time together ....both of us .
Even after 10 years , 20 years or even 50 years . 
In Syaa Allah .


하나는 행복입니다 .
우리 오래 가자 ! 열심히하자 !

Wednesday, 4 December 2013

Miracle in December

Assalamualikum and Hi ? 
So that everyone knows (maybe not everyone) ...., <Miracle in December> music video has been released ! YEAY EXO !!  . hahahahah .

So today is 5th of December 13' (for real!) which EXO's comeback will be on Mnet 'M Coutdown' and and and it's Yuri from Girls' Generation's  Birthday . Cheers !!! A round applause  .

Happy Birthday to you , Happy Birthday to you , Happy Birthday to Kwon YuRi , Happy Birthday to you ! *clap  clap  clap  clap  clap  clap  clap *

Soooooo it's 3 40 in the morning (Malaysia time) , I was wishing to do some revision but ..................................... *I guess that I didn't happen . O-EM-JI !!! I wanna spend my holidays doing the things I want this whole month but I can't and it seems like I spent enough time doing rubbish things except watching movies . Heol ! 

Oh , I haven't write the main point of this blog eyh ? So , <Miracle in December> has been released and now the anticipating comeback on Mnet . The MV is .......... (10 thumbs up) . It's a ballad song which the lyrics aren't bad either . Plus , if you are not a kpop-er , you don't understand the feels .
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EXO's Miracles in December video teaser

EXO-December

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I don't usually show these sides of mine on twitter , facebook , instagram or anywhere except in front of my friends and family but ...............................................
QWERTYUIOP 
ASDFGHJKL 
ZXCVBNM 
CANNOT CONTAIN FEELS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

*kicks bed
*does the high jump sport on bed
*roll side to side until falls from bed
*screams as if just a bundle of cockroaches pass by in one line
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*mom knocks and was like "hey gurrrl you betta keep your mouth shut or else imma gonna throw you outta that window , heyl yeah ! ehmmhhm nowt jowkeng" * (jk)


So if you're curious why , go see it for yourself . (but probably you're not curious at all)
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*so you watch the video and be like "what's all the fuss !!? just wasted my time on this lame video with 12 boys like a !@##$%^& *
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the next year ------> fell in love with those boys and be like "I did wrong ! I regret it !" *cries endlessly / "EXO's comeback is next week !!" *does some unnecessary preparation only God knows what / "OMG ! OMG ! OMG ! EXO will hold a concert in my country   !!" *aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand was the first fan to line up under the hot freaking sun to buy the ticket for their concert .

HAHAHAH LMAO 

However , their voice ~ acting ~ MV ~                              HEBAK DAEBAK !
I liked it so so so much because snow was falling and I always loved winter though I live in Malaysia .


Wrap up ! Bye jaijjen ~ 

"I try to find you who I can't see , I try to hear you who I can't hear"

Monday, 2 December 2013

Blog Renovate , at last ! and Bad Day ~

Assalamualaikum , hey and YEAY !!!
At last .... I've transform my blog into a pinkish girly blog . My friends said that I'm not suitable with pink and they were shocked to hear that I love pink . Well hey , I'm back to basic . I loved pink since I was a little brat . What's the big deal anyways ? I just kept pink inside my heart since I became a teenager . 


Anyways , for the time being , I'm in loved with IU's <Modern Time> album and so into it . The songs she wrote are so (heart touching) . And the song I would like to recommend to those loners out there or those who loves to be alone (like me) is <Bad Day> / <싫은 날> . Besides <The Red Shoes> and <Modern Time> , I love this song so bad ! (not really ) . This is a song which IU wrote herself about a year ago and studio record it for this album .

The lyrics has nothing to do with me but I love it . The melody is not that bad either . Try hearing it out   ..... even if you're not a kpop-er .